Earthquake

1, 2, 3, 4 5,... until 20+ could you imagine that a company had more than 20 staff resigned, but the reason is almost the same? I'm not mean the company going to bankrupt, reason as like family illness need to take care of them; continue study; wish to have a new working environment and etc. What I knew is they also noticed this company cannot provide what they wanted, the policies changed to more strict and stingy. Ah ying said an organization must systematic to survive, not at all, it also need to be have more consideration upon staff, right? For example, everyone also can fall sick maybe just a cough or fever or flu or whatever, this is reasonable right? That company can't accept staff fall sick, once you request MC that will deduct from coming bonus, what the hell! Depends on how many days you wish to on MC, then your bonus will deduct how many days. Pro-rated annual leaves, company will not accept staff take annual leaves in advance, it counted by 1 year 10 days annual leaves divide by 12 months and times to how many months you have worked with the company. That's why all old staff already resign and I don't think they can recruit anymore better staff to run the company, in future, I'll suggest my friends who wish to be a boss, please be considerate, others work for you they just want to earn money, if you provide a little bit more reasonable bonus to them, I swear they willing to put more effort and do it properly! I mean that is for those who really good staff, except pigs!!

I feel extremely 'sien' while working with this company, I always count when I only can leave from this company until today my other closed colleague told me she will left soon then I aware that all my closed colleagues also gone to other place, they can't stay in the company and do her job. Enough, I told myself, however, I can't left, due to the situation, I have to stay until this Oct, I really lost. Every morning I get up early then go to work and go home and relax and sleep and start another new day, I don't think I can tolerate such boring life, because everyday I repeat same job and deal with my computer only, if my colleague resigned then I have no one to chat with me, my work life just like a robot, can't even speak and I feel my communication skill getting regress. Enough! I told myself again, however, I have to accept I should survive alone in the company until this October, to God, please make time goes faster. Darling, I really lost myself, I think I'll become crazy soon.. I feel envy of my colleagues, they can run faster, left this bullshit company when they really can't accept. Haiz~ good luck to them, this is what I can at least tell them.

Good luck to myself too, hopefully I can handle the burden of job schedule before a new staff have been recruit.

Now my company like having earthquake, the staff change and change; the policies also change and change...

Rainy Season

Damn raining day, I suppose like raining day but not the time I knock off and get cold. Today I feel extremely moody, because this raining not only brought me whole body get wet, my toes get cold, and also I got bite by mosquitoes, itchiness and painful came to me at the same time. That moment what I wanted is rush to have a shower, clean myself. Really a bad day for me. I feel quite shame also, in front so many people I scratch my legs here and there. Once I reached house, I collect 1 set of clean t-shirt and shorts then directly went to shower, I really feel tired and sleepy, what the hell today so many unhappiness happened to me? After bath, I have to continue my homework, but I have no mood already, because I feel sleepy, my eyes almost stick together, how I going to sit for this exam and pass? Enough! I told myself, this was suffering but I have to accept it since I wanted brighten and better future. Who else can help me at least cheer up me, make me can smile to the text book?? Dear my Darling, where have you been? You never reply me after CNY, I have no idea how to contact you at all now. Seem like our future really 'dark' =( What can I do to make myself feel that this relationship is steady enough to face those obstacles? What can I do for you to at least let you reply a msg to me?

Breathless.. Please take care sisters, recently this weather too much changes, you'll can't predict what time the God will rain, do remember bring a umbrella and jacket too, don't get cold or fall sick ya! for Mr Lee too!

Broken English

I aware my English so poor in accidentally, am i? I never imagine that I couldn't handle a English test as well, I think beside to resit the C.A.T examination, I should go for another English grammar test too! I thought that English is endless, it is always no the end to learn English, but at least I'm not that poor right? I always believe, basic English I still can understood but now I noticed I did have a lot of English words that I'm  not really know what it mean. What a Broken English. Hm.. I think I better go back to my seat and calculate out my practice, because I haven't did any of the practice so far, is that really possible I can pass the exam? Oh God, please remember to bless me during the exam, otherwise, I have to pay again.

Recently I wondering to change a new co, a new environment for working, but I don't have confidence anymore, cause there are so many new graduates come out and look for a job, maybe they request lower salary but they have higher qualification, even I have working experience, but this damn co never give me a chance to learn more. Some more this stingy co just provide us a little bit of bonus! My friend received 2months + bonus on Chinese New Year, what the hell! I felt very unfair for this cases, why my co. so stingy one?? Even though I having higher salary but at least provide us 1month bonus, I'll appreciate it a lot. That's why I planning change to another co. but I knew that outside paid is lower and maybe more stingy than my current employer. =( Tell you guys, please beware when you in a co. if you think that the co. can't provide what you wanted better you run faster and go to another better co. ok? Due to I'm a foreigner in Singapore, got quite a lot of rules I have to follow in case Income Tax look for me, if you have ever study Malaysia Tax, ya, it could apply to Singapore too but Singapore higher than Malaysia. So, when I thinking want to change a new job I have to consider Financial problem too, not that fun stay in other country.

By the way, My little pity laptop haven't come back, I'm so miss it. I need it a lot!!

Dear Darling, you definitely like gone to anywhere I don't know at all, are you? When you only can reply me? Is that a sign for you to tell me something?

Miss you so much.

Resit of examination

Finally, I decided to resit the exam again on this June, really waste a lot of time to do some meaningless stuff, maybe is time to tidy up my mood, get ready for my examination. This is the second time and also last time, I'll don't hope I have to resit another one more time if I fail, so I have to put more effort on it. Just.. I thought I have return back a lot knowledge to my lecturer already, sometimes really no idea what's the notes talking about and I can't even do a practice exam, I have totally don't know how to do. My Goodness... Is that possible I can pass the exam? By the way, why I'm still can blogging here? I think I should control myself to near my laptop or this new computer (my brother is the owner) ; my laptop already sent to repair, hopefully it can get well soon, I need some document inside my laptop!! Hm.. ya, as I said, self-controlling now is the most important, I got to concentrate on my exam, don't think about FB or even blog right? Alright, at least I can online to blog just 3times per week, to update or leave a comment right? Haiz~ Sisters, so I'll unable to online chit-chat with you, call to you like before, I'll miss you all so much, hopefully this few months can goes fast, I feel like suffering, I like my life to be relax and freedom! What a lazy 'sneak' =P

Ya, for those who are taking for the exam also, good luck for you, wish you get full 'Á' result =)

For sure, I'll never forget to miss you, even I'm busy with study, love you..

Say OH YEAH

Hahahaha~~ This was today what I wanted to have, sound really crazy, I want to say Oh Yeah!! First time I mean in Singapore half year plus, this was first time I feel I like a crazy/mindless lady. I was laugh loudly in public, I was sing K with all of my energy, I was ate a lot of high calories food, I don't care what's the effect, because today I wanted to have some happy mood. Actually, that issue made me feel disappointed, I feel I'm really useless enough, why I can't handle my English so well, just like others. I did put effort on it, I thought that really improve my English but now seem like this was not enough I still have a long way to go, I got to learn English, speak in fluent, at least no grammar mistake. My English maybe others can understand what I mean, but they just guess it, not totally understand, so.. This is the problem. Alright, come back to my topic, what I had done today? Dear my darling, I'm so sorry that I hang out with one gang of guys without lady except me, but please don't worry about it, because they are good person, they protect me as well, at least today we didn't get drunk or even 1ml of alcoholic, I realize what I'm doing with them, we just simply have a meal then go to sing K until exhausted. I promised we didn't do anything over, just like a good friends, and they are 3 of them, Fuji, Keat & Ah Looi, I thought u knew all of them but not so closed, maybe have a chance I can introduce or whatever. OK, is actually I got invite lady to attend, however she's busy in dating with her Boyfriend, so I don't want to bother them too much, then only left few of us. Firstly we never decide to go to Sing K, this was after finish out dinner (around 8pm) then we hang out and don't know what to do, after that we decided to Sing K. Secondly, I really wanted to do something different, I mean I seldom do it, I want to spread out all of the unhappiness staying in Singapore as like just now what I said, some more today I feel I'm so pitiful? Though I have put so much of effort to gain nothing, I wanted to relax myself fully, I didn't cry cause of that really no point to cry with. Darling, could you get it, so please forgive my childish, I knew you think that I'm childish, you have more burden of stress above your shoulder, I have no right to do this, I know this may make you feel unhappy, I'll accept your punishment, ok? Just please don't tell me to break up with you. ok? I think in future may don't have such a chance again, because Fuji going back, then I wanted to concentrate on my examinations, I'll try to avoid hang out with along again ok?  I feel so guilty when you're doing your job so hard, I'm just enjoying my life here, haiz~ I'm really an unsuccessful Girlfriend, always made you feel worry and mad. Darling, I got miss you even singing K, I got sing the songs. I really love you too deeply, I think not easy to give up you as like my dream also, Please smile ok?? =) This is the last time I did it, don't get mad ya~ Today I really have a nice moment with them, thanks a lot to them provide me so many happiness, thanks for Fuji treat also. Alright, time to sleep now, I feel my throat dried and itchy and little bit pain, just now I really use all of my energy to sing K.. hahahahaha~

I'm in good mood, at least.

Love you Darling, where are you now? You didn't reply my text at all!!

A Fragile Dream

Hmm.. why I said my dream is a fragile dream? I thought all of you also have a dream, maybe like stay with your family forever, all of you in happy, or you have a dream to own a 'Porsche' or you ever dream to do something that's very special and bla bla bla.. This was all of us also ever dream to, but my dream was fragile, like if I hold it too tight, it can be broken or spoil, or I hold to loose, it'll be gone anywhere that I can't get it anymore in my life, my dream was really important for me, all of you also knew it I had dream it since Secondary school, I never think that I would have a chance to achieve though I failed. You know what, when I noticed that I was rejected, I felt so relax, I knew how much is my ability, I knew I was unable to handle it if I really success to in SIA, cause there are so many higher graduate/successful person and they were also full of working experience, I'll have no idea why SIA choose me and others have been rejected right? So, I told myself, it's great, I didn't go to second round, maybe I got a bit disappointed however I'm not sad, I smiled to myself, telling myself, 2years later, I'll challenge it again. Is that in my true deep heart, I wish to stay with you some more time than to be a flight attendance, haha~ Feeling this was not me anymore, I love you deeply and miss you so much, why we can't stay together like an ordinary couples? Darling, where are you now? Have you got time to miss me?

Actually this was my first time to interview a big organization, I was feel nervous first saw a lot of people queue up and just get a group no. made me feel like it was stupid enough. Meanwhile I was also feel from it, learn from it, because I saw a lot of ladies wore formally and informally, quite a lot of them wore short skirt and V-shape shirt, Wow, it was shock man! There were some of them wore formally, Long-sleeves shirt with pants or skirts, for gentlemen wore shirt and pants (for sure) and they wore tie also. Maybe in future I can use to it, because I thought I was really not good with it. haiz~ By the way, I knew one friend also, she's Singaporean, undergraduate from local University, she spoke fluent in English, I could get what she mean, but I can't answer her as well. I have to learn more speak more in English. After this, she also can spoke in fluent of Mandarin, (actually seldom Singaporean could speak fluent in English and Mandarin at the same time) so I was surprised with it. She's accompany me at all due to she was a well spoker and listener, I didn't feel lonely there. We had a long queue up to interview, but for first round interview it only took around 15min then we get an answer is that can go to second round, so many step have to go through, but I was been kick out from first round, due to my inability of handle English speaking, really poor like a hell, I wondering is that I should take a English course to improve myself, but not now, because I have to handle my mid-year exam, it's nearly still left 2 and a half month, anyone can support me?? Some more they request candidates introduce passenger where they should go to visit Singapore, Oh My, I Didn't know so well regard Singapore, really mission of impossible, because I seldom hang out with friends and travel here and there. Hm.. Just said that I'm really not in perfect mood to handle this all, it was too rush for me. End up, at least greet with the successful guys hope them can go through all the stage and get what they wanted. Congratulations to you all and especially Yen Ping, is that Yen Ping? No idea, even I didn't request for your contact but I know if we do have fate, we can meet up one day. =) Hopefully 2years later I can in this organization do the things I like, love my job. Alright, have to go, later hang out with Fuji & some classmate to have a farewell for Fuji, he's going back to Ipoh soon. As an announcement, I'll type English in future to improve my English ma.. =)

Everyone, have a nice weekend, love you all & thanks for you support and everything.

Darling, could you read it? Remember we still have a promised, don't go too far and we can't meet up again ya~ I love you!! Muakx..

Flight attandence

You know what? Today i have a chance to achieve my dream, i knew this was may can't be success, but I wish to try, try for my own, tell myself, at least I give myself a chance to achieve the dream, My dream, ya Flight Attendance, maybe others will think that this was sound so funny, cause not really a big deal, but this was a dream I ever tell myself since Secondary School, I know how strong I felt on it, I hope to do it!! Thanks to Sue Ann, share with me, talk to me, give me some bravery, and I can bring along to face it. Thanks to my colleague, she teach me how to act perfect in first image, so that I can have more confidence to smile to others. Thanks to the people who ever wish for me, I really glad, at least you still remember to support me in spirit, I thought I'm not challenge alone, I still have you all belong with me..

Darling, I love you & miss you so much, maybe you don't know what I'm going to do, is actually now I'm going to interview.. Now I feel quite kan cheong.. My God.. =(

Remember be confidence!!

聚会

Dear，那个··今天我是想要和你自首的，
我觉得让我亲自告诉你好过你听到他人告诉你，
或许他们的版本会更加精彩，但是我的事原汁原味的，
并没有加上其他的东西，
就是我和我的朋友去聚会，
而这些朋友都是男生，当然不是单独两个人，
是有几个的朋友，因为刚好没有约到女生咯，
但是我没有只是一起吃东西，看戏和聊天，
而且其中你都认识的，好像夫子和ah Looi,
我知道你并不是很喜欢我和夫子单独出去，
所以之后我都尽量避免了，
而且我很肯定地对你说，我没有对他或者任何一个人有特别的好感，
完全是朋友的感觉，我不会爱上他们任何一个人，
可是将心比心，我懂你不会喜欢我和男生‘聚会’，
所以我一定不会有下次了，因为我也会不喜欢你和女生单独约会，
我会自首，因为我很自责，那么，你可以原谅我吗？
希望你不会太过伤心咯，=）
我有想念你的哦··

嗜钱如命

早一阵子，我忽然好像哈钱哈得要命，
感觉没钱我真的无法觉得生命是有意义的，
然后我拼命在想，怎么找出一些钱呢？？
或许做兼职是个不错的提议，但是没有太多的效益，
因为这种工作是廉价的，而且我不被允许如此做，
或许你们不知道，其实在新加坡工作的外劳，
是不可以做兼职的，那是犯法，如果获得定罪，
可以被罚款或者失去逗留在新加坡的机会，
所以我不可以做这些东西，即使怎样都不能犯法。
那么我就试试看我的超烂运气，用十块钱买了toto,
就试试看到底我有没有狗屎运，种了两百万然后回家退休。
在等待的时候，我就在做白日梦，
难得我这么无聊做一些无谓的白日梦，
我在想如果我难道了两百万到底要怎么花，
或许我应该拿百分之二十做善事，
可是还剩下许多的钱，我应该为我的家人买一栋房子，
或者是一栋可以很多人一起住的房子。
然后为自己买一辆中级轿车，代步用的。
然后算出一部分的前就放在银行作定款，赚利息。
再来我可以继续念书，学习我想要的东西，
作一些自己感兴趣的事物，去旅游啊~
因为有钱就不会担心没钱的生活了，是不是非常无聊？
因为我做工的时候非常有空，不做白日梦，不知能做些什么了，
可惜结果是，我并没有种两百万，
所以可以忘掉这些让我心酸的事情啦。
知道自己从来就没什么好运气的啦。
但是我最近也意识到，回家我也是要花钱的，
怎么办呢？看来我一生人真的注定了没有机会偷懒，
生来就是要工作到死为止，没有办法活在一天整天就躺在床上当废人了。
听起来是不是很懒惰，对吧？
我知道你一定在想你是如何的勤劳，每天都很忙，
而我已经算是很懒惰，什么事情都是放在一边，不做完就休息，
典型懒人一条。
然后，忽然间我领悟到，钱永远都不会赚完，
今天我有一千块，我不会省着点用，
我可能每两三天就把他花完了，然后心安理得当原来的自己，
明天我有两千万，相信结果也是一样的吧，
钱不是财富的代表，如果我有bill gate的财富，
但是没有家人和喜欢的人在身边，这一切就没有意义了，
我讨厌独自活在这个世界上，没有亲人的陪伴。
所以，我不想太有钱，我只想生活没有太多疑虑，
作现在的我，有空时就做一下白日梦，
人出生时没有带着人和东西来到这个世界，
离开这个世界时，也不会带走任何东西，
除了那一段一段的快乐回忆会陪伴自己随风而去。
你明白我的意思吧？我记得你好像有问过我类似的问题，
那时候和现在的答案，是不是又改变了呢？？
我爱你，你最近过得如何呢？
一定要好好地回来，你的家人和我，都在等待你呢！

小学同学聚会@SG

上一次我提过我的小学同学办了一场聚会，
搞得挺有模样的，那时让我大吃一惊，想不到他们这么有热忱，
但是我就是无法参与其中，我一直都不明白这么回事，
我想经过这一场小型的聚会我明白为什么了，
是因为我不习惯在太多人的地方大声说话，
不知道从什么时候开始，在陌生人的地方，我无法大声地说话，
尤其是没有熟人在我的身边，我更加不想说话，连微笑都无法提供，
难道··我变了？我变的掩饰自己在人群中，
我不想大家的注意力放在我身上，
我恨不得自己是一个人的，害怕陌生人盯着我看。
话说回来，这一场小型的聚会，让我感到自在多了，
第一是，周围的环境是舒适的，
让我感到非常自在，即使大声说话也不会感到尴尬，
第二是，因为有那么一班吵死人的同学，
想保持安静实在是有难度啊，
因为那几位同学都是我比较熟悉的，
所以我勇敢的提出自己的想法，糗他们咯，
这也是我最会沟通的能力，抱歉无意间伤了他们的自尊心，
然而心里明白他们都是可以开玩笑的朋友，
因为他们也经常拿我来开玩笑或者其它任何一个人，
这样也变得笑声不断，乐趣无穷的，
甚至让外人觉得我们是在让人困扰，非常吵闹，
不过我喜欢和他们相处的感觉多过上一场的聚会，
不过这一场聚会中只有两位女生，非常可惜，
如果多一点应该会更热闹吧？？
谢谢那两位拼了老命死都要我参加的同学，
因为他们我才有机会感受那种乐趣的聚会，
而且也感谢那位请我们喝了超贵的饮料，
我看他也不是很有钱的样子，让他请也不好意思。
这一次的聚会选在周日，因为要迁就其它做工的人，
所以回家时都已经晚了，但是心里感到满足，
开心的睡了一觉，几个小时后又醒来要去工作了~~
这是照片：

 

Keat (very tall la)

They talking something very funny =)

Fuji is my No.3 情夫 XP

Han Yuan (long time no see)

This fellow talking non-stop !! (beh tahan him)

Suee Yang & Keat

This's the high-class Drinks ($7.20)

大合照 =)

你呢？新年你是如何度过的呢？那里有没有很冷啊？

一定要小心照顾自己，我有没有看起来过的很好呢？？

我很想念你陪伴的每一刻··